stuff that have alot of memory :')

the reason :)

firstly the birth day :)
at 4th of february after school they came to my house to celebrate the birthday, im quite of sad but its okay, they said they remember it but you knoww what right?
tu je, and the end


and the reason for the break up stuff :)
why they use to be my best best friend?
because they ,,,haha, aku yg putus kan relation best best friend because it doesn't seems like im the best friends.
you wanna know why? it because
1. i never know their secrets like they know each other secrets
2. they never ask me anything about their life, like bf. they ask each other but not asking me.
3. they like to make own decision by asking each other but without me :)
4. they left me behind when they meet ech others,
5. sometimes walks each others and left me when realiseit i was at back.

thats why im making this decision,
if they said im their b.b.friends i should know what they telling each other right?
i've trying to forget and forgive, and i've started to give you guys a hind but it doesn't even works, you guys just ignore it, "I'M SO DISAPPOINTED WITH YOU GUYS"

"IM SO SORRY BUT I DONT WANT TO HURT AND BE HURT BY GIRLS NOT GUYS ;)

chowww,

your use to be your best best friends,

fai :)

3rd of February 2010

i just write the past to make others know about something,
the day that might be important in every people on this earth,

and with me it soo important, i woke up and go to shower. and ready to school.
im hoping that someone will said, "happy birthday adik *hug and kiss"
but of course im not get anything. i wait and wait but no one said anything untill i said today is my birthday mama, first she just like dont hear until i scream about it. then baru ade happy birthday all that but from mama and abah,

then i go to school, reach school, everybody said "happy birthday faizah, syg kau, sorry present tade" and i said "its okayyy, aku tak kesah asal korang igt". im so excited to wait for my best best friend *usetobe to said " my dear faizah happy birthday, we love you so much!" then recess i wait them and no one show up i know they came to school. so i just wait and wait but still no one, then i go recess alone :) im not ate my food at all, even im started to crying . then my classmate ask, "why are you crying faizah" and i said "nothing" and i smiled.

then when its time to go back i go back with them and they show up and nothing happened
im gettin' weird and i just shut up and dont say nothing i just wanted to know do they remember what day is that day, then go back home i meet my brother and sister, im waiting from them to said the birthday stuff, but no reaction. im use to it because they never said happy birthday to me from i was child :) but its okayyy.

then the night i wait for them to said it on phone or whatever. but still nothing. that night, i was crying sooo bad.

when did they said happy birthday? another blog

fireworks babyyyy!

Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting throught the wind
Wanting to start again

Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards
One blow from caving in

Do you ever feel already buried deep
Six feet under scream
But no one seems to hear a thing

Do you know that tehre's still a chance for you
Cause there's a spark in you

You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own

You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow

Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed
So you can open one that leads you to the perfect road

Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know

You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on slet your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on slet your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em goin "Oh, oh, oh!"

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon

NOW IT ALL CLEAR ;)

im sososososososo sorry,

but i cant, its not about kelua but lain :l

i have make up my mind,
you guys never gonna understand it and never gonna know about it,
lets keep it as a secret

i'm so sorry my LOVE

to HAIZA and FARA

im sorry for what i've done.
i think its good for us to be best friends like superb virgins but not sinisters.
im sorry cause i had it enough
i cant trough it anymore, im sorry.
i had it enough and im done :'l

im trying to be patient but my patient level has fully loaded
i love you guys so freaking much but
you guys give me this decision .

after this might be awkward but we still best friends (superbvirgins)
lepak mcm biase aku lpk dgn korg sbb aku tak biasa sgt dgn others 5 kan so
kita mcm biase2 but not SINISTER's
but we still can lepak mcm kita pegi buka puasa. :)

i'm soooooo sorry guys

your ex-bestbestfriends,
fai<3

Seasons come and go, But I will never change

Oh written in the stars
A million miles away
A message to the main
Ooooh
Seasons come and go
But I will never change
And I’m on my way


Lets go…
Yeah
You’re listening now
They say they aint heard nothing like this in a while
Thats why they play my song on so many different dials
Cause I got more hits than a disciplined child
When they see me everybody brrrrrap’s, brrrrrraps
Man I’m like a young gun fully black Barrack
I cried tear drops over the massive attack
I only make hits like I work with a racket and bat
Look at my jacket and hat
So damn berserk
So down to earth
I’m bringing gravity back
Adopted by the major I want my family back
People work hard just to get all their salary taxed
Look Im just a writer from the ghetto like Malory blackman
Where the hells all the sanity at, damn
I used to be the kid that no one cared about
Thats why you have to keep screaming til they hear you out

[Chorus]
Oh Written In The Stars
A Million Miles Away
A Message To The Main
Ooooh
Seasons Come And Go
But I Will Never Change
And I'm On My Way

Yeah, I needed a change
When we ate we never took because we needed a change
I needed a break
For a sec I even gave up believing and praying
I even done the legal stuff and was leaded astray
Now money is the root to the evilist ways
But have you ever been so hungry that it keeps you awake
Mate, now my hunger would leave them amazed
Great, it feels like a long time coming, fam
Since the day I thought of that cunning plan
One day I had a dream I tried to chase it
But I wasn’t going nowhere, running man!
I knew that maybe someday I would understand
Trying to turn a tenner to a hundred grand
Everyones a kid that no-one cares about
You just have to keep screaming until they hear you out

[Chorus]
Oh Written In The Stars
A Million Miles Away
A Message To The Main
Ooooh
Seasons Come And Go
But I Will Never Change
And I'm On My Way

urghhh! its so unfair! -__-!

there's a kemeja kot but with hoodie. i want it. but dont have the money, so i ask my mum for it but she said no, cause she dont have money.
its weird because my brother just ask her for shoes and she gave him right at that time. -__-
its make me feel like so so so so UNFAIR!
i never ask a shirt from her before. but this time i really really really want it. can she just give?
its make me asking about me. what is the different between me and them.
sometimes this kind of stuff reminds me about old stuff like the way i've been treated by my mum and my family :l

*ya Allah im begging you please help me go trough with my life that you have made with alot of difficulty, AMIN :l

huuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhh
* i hope there's someone can give me a good advice. and

p/s ireallyneedmybestfriends :'(