stuff that have alot of memory :')

the reason :)

firstly the birth day :)
at 4th of february after school they came to my house to celebrate the birthday, im quite of sad but its okay, they said they remember it but you knoww what right?
tu je, and the end


and the reason for the break up stuff :)
why they use to be my best best friend?
because they ,,,haha, aku yg putus kan relation best best friend because it doesn't seems like im the best friends.
you wanna know why? it because
1. i never know their secrets like they know each other secrets
2. they never ask me anything about their life, like bf. they ask each other but not asking me.
3. they like to make own decision by asking each other but without me :)
4. they left me behind when they meet ech others,
5. sometimes walks each others and left me when realiseit i was at back.

thats why im making this decision,
if they said im their b.b.friends i should know what they telling each other right?
i've trying to forget and forgive, and i've started to give you guys a hind but it doesn't even works, you guys just ignore it, "I'M SO DISAPPOINTED WITH YOU GUYS"

"IM SO SORRY BUT I DONT WANT TO HURT AND BE HURT BY GIRLS NOT GUYS ;)

chowww,

your use to be your best best friends,

fai :)

3rd of February 2010

i just write the past to make others know about something,
the day that might be important in every people on this earth,

and with me it soo important, i woke up and go to shower. and ready to school.
im hoping that someone will said, "happy birthday adik *hug and kiss"
but of course im not get anything. i wait and wait but no one said anything untill i said today is my birthday mama, first she just like dont hear until i scream about it. then baru ade happy birthday all that but from mama and abah,

then i go to school, reach school, everybody said "happy birthday faizah, syg kau, sorry present tade" and i said "its okayyy, aku tak kesah asal korang igt". im so excited to wait for my best best friend *usetobe to said " my dear faizah happy birthday, we love you so much!" then recess i wait them and no one show up i know they came to school. so i just wait and wait but still no one, then i go recess alone :) im not ate my food at all, even im started to crying . then my classmate ask, "why are you crying faizah" and i said "nothing" and i smiled.

then when its time to go back i go back with them and they show up and nothing happened
im gettin' weird and i just shut up and dont say nothing i just wanted to know do they remember what day is that day, then go back home i meet my brother and sister, im waiting from them to said the birthday stuff, but no reaction. im use to it because they never said happy birthday to me from i was child :) but its okayyy.

then the night i wait for them to said it on phone or whatever. but still nothing. that night, i was crying sooo bad.

when did they said happy birthday? another blog

fireworks babyyyy!

Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting throught the wind
Wanting to start again

Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards
One blow from caving in

Do you ever feel already buried deep
Six feet under scream
But no one seems to hear a thing

Do you know that tehre's still a chance for you
Cause there's a spark in you

You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own

You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow

Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed
So you can open one that leads you to the perfect road

Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know

You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on slet your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on slet your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em goin "Oh, oh, oh!"

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon

NOW IT ALL CLEAR ;)

im sososososososo sorry,

but i cant, its not about kelua but lain :l

i have make up my mind,
you guys never gonna understand it and never gonna know about it,
lets keep it as a secret

i'm so sorry my LOVE

to HAIZA and FARA

im sorry for what i've done.
i think its good for us to be best friends like superb virgins but not sinisters.
im sorry cause i had it enough
i cant trough it anymore, im sorry.
i had it enough and im done :'l

im trying to be patient but my patient level has fully loaded
i love you guys so freaking much but
you guys give me this decision .

after this might be awkward but we still best friends (superbvirgins)
lepak mcm biase aku lpk dgn korg sbb aku tak biasa sgt dgn others 5 kan so
kita mcm biase2 but not SINISTER's
but we still can lepak mcm kita pegi buka puasa. :)

i'm soooooo sorry guys

your ex-bestbestfriends,
fai<3